Singer and influencer Madison Beer revealed her struggles with mental health and suicidal thoughts on the “Drew Barrymore Show” Wednesday — leading to the host’s shocking confession.
“I felt like I was putting on this facade and living this role that was assigned to me, and one day it all caught up with me,” Beer shared.
The 24-year-old, who was discovered by Justin Bieber, talked about her challenges in her memoir “The Half of It.”
“I struggled alone for so long and I felt like I had no one,” she said.
But once Bear realized she wasn’t the only one with dark thoughts, she knew she had to speak up.
During the sit-down interview, Drew Barrymore revealed that she also overcame suicidal thoughts.
“I’ve been there. I told on levels that are hard to talk about,” she said.
In the past, Barrymore has spoken out about her childhood drug addiction and how she recovered.
“I don’t know if I really wanted to leave Earth. I was so desperate I didn’t know where else to go?” confessed the host of the talk show.
Barrymore kindly asked Beer about her two “attempts to escape life.”
The ‘Baddest’ singer admitted she had suicidal thoughts for ‘at least a year’ and how ‘it became very normal to [for her] to think about that at the end of each day.”
“Sitting on a balcony and debating jumping off was just something I kind of did,” Beer told Barrymore. “And that’s why I’m like, ‘Was that really such a big deal?’ Now of course, with a lot of thinking and writing about it, obviously yes.
The influencer shared, “I used to tell my best friend, ‘I want a temporary death,'” to escape her hectic life at the time.
Barrymore also praised Beer for being open about her struggles, asking “How did you find your way back?”
The singer admitted that she “went on a few mental health retreats, attended therapy every day of the week” and “the little girl in me started to heal”.
“I made a choice to live,” Beer declared. “Clearly there’s something more for me to live for.”
“Everything you just said was an incredible rollercoaster of real productivity in seeking help, in self-awareness, in giving grace to others, realizing you’re not giving it to yourself,” Barrymore gushed about Beer, saying, “I love of you .”
The singer has always been open about her mental health since she rose to fame. In 2020, Beer celebrated a year of being “self-harm free” on Instagram, writing, “As of today…I’m officially one year self-harm free…I never thought I could say this & I am so proud of myself.”
If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts or experiencing a mental health crisis and live in New York City, call 888-NYC-WELL for free and confidential crisis counseling. If you live outside the five boroughs, you can call the 24/7 national Suicide & Crisis Lifeline at 988 or visit SuicidePreventionLifeline.org.
